Tag Archives: friends

TSA and the new body scanners

23 Nov

My friend posted this from Mike Huckabee and it is so true. I just had to post this.

“Regarding TSA violations: “If he thinks this is an appropriate way for us to deal with security as he has defended, then I’ve said, ‘OK, Mr. Obama, take your wife, your two daughters and your mother-in-law to Washington Reagan National Airport and have them publicly go through both the body scanner and the full enhanced pat-down in front of others,'” Huckabee said in an interview…”

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A Miscarriage

20 Nov

I am only writing about my story because I know I am not alone. So many friends and family have reached out, and shared their story with me.

Here’s my story: I had been really sick with two ear infections, vertigo, nausea and a cold. I was throwing up and bleeding for a month. I knew something was wrong. I found out I was pregnant.  I had no insurance and my husband was out of work. This could not have come at a worse time. I was upset and in shock. This was not planned and so unexpected. I have two girls and I love kids. We want a whole house full but the timing was so off. I called my OB and they did some blood work. Everything appeared to be fine except my progestin levels were slightly lower then they would like. I started meds and I was scheduled for an ultra sound. I got the horrible news on Tuesday, November 9th that not only was I only measuring 6 weeks along when I should be 10 but there was no heart beat. I was beyond devastated. This means my body has been holding my little one and making me think all was okay. I was as sick as a dog yet my little one had already passed on. How cruel and to make matters worse I found I was pregnant yet my baby was already gone. This is something I don’t understand. I don’t understand how any of this could happen. I was full of guilt for being upset  yet I knew I did nothing wrong. I do not smoke, drink and I eat fairly healthy.

I have so many questions. I cried all day after my surgery and I went into a depression. I have gone through all the grieving emotions. These emotions are all too familiar as I have been through them before when my dad passed away. I have my good days and I have my bad. I am trying to keep super busy and get back into my routine.

God is  getting me through this and slowly healing my heart. I do have a support system. I have two beautiful girls, my hubby who has been amazing and grieving right along with me. Family members who are there for me to cry, get angry and pray with. Friends who are more like family then some of our own family. Bringing us groceries, sitting with me while I have to sign a death certificate and make arrangements on what to do with my little one. This was such a huge blow to us but I know I am not alone. I don’t understand it but I know I am not alone.

People who have not been through this don’t understand. They do try to make you feel better but some comments should just be kept to yourself. ” I’m sorry for your loss”,  and “I’m praying for you” are wonderful.  Please don’t say, “you’ll move past this.” No this was a child created out of love whether by plan or not that will not have a chance to grow up for whatever reason but knowing my baby is in heaven with all the other babies lost gives me great comfort. I will heal but you never truly get over a loss. It gets a little easier as the years go on but you never get over it.

I am a very private person but so many people have come forward and shared their story and I want to help someone else as women have helped me get through this. I have a friend who was entering her second trimester and she was pregnant with twins. She lost them a few days before we found out. We have been grieving together and praying for each other. I just want you to know you are not alone. Cry, get angry, pray whatever you have to do but don’t hold it in. Hold on to your faith. Hold on to your loved ones. I am not sure if we will have any more children because I cannot go through this again but I love my girls and they do truly bring me great comfort.

“Why don’t friends with kids never have any time?”

13 Jul

This is the best article on motherhood and why friends with kids never have any time. Carol nailed it! This is my life. An errand that may take someone who does not have children 10-15 minutes, takes me 30 -45 depending on if I have one child with me or two. I can do twice as much when my kids are not with me. I get so much more done because I am not having to break up fights, clean up messes, grab 100 snacks and take the kids where they need to go. If I do get to sit down it is usually late at night after everyone has gone to bed. My job as a mom is 24/7. I don’t regret it or hate it. It is a fact and sometimes it is like a roller coaster. You have your ups and your downs. Before you judge people you really should put yourself in their shoes for 1 minute, 1 hour or 1 day. When we say we don’t have time, it is not a lie. We are telling the truth. This is why I got an iphone for Christmas so I can keep up with friends via my phone. I rarely have time to sit down at the computer but I can stay in contact with emails, FB etc via my phone. It really is my lifeline to the world.

Your Past

10 Jul

So I was going through some old boxes looking for toys or clothes to give away to a friend and I found all of my old elementary and  HS year books. Wow! What memories this brings back. My girls are so excited to see what Mommy and Daddy looked like way back when. Good times! Good times!

Friends

10 Jul

We just met the most awesome couple. We really connected with them and they are such a sweet blessing to our lives. I love when God has divine encounters with people. Those moments where you connect with people and it is effortless.

Zhu Zhu Pets

8 Jul

We have now entered the world of  Zhu Zhu pets. My 8 year old and 4 year old are in love. They love animals but the fact they move, purr, etc is an added bonus. They are super cute!

Sisters

14 Jun

Peanut followed in Sissy’s foot steps this year and entered the big world of ballet. They just had their recital, Jungle Fever. Peanut was a frog and Sissy was a flamingo. They were so beautiful in their costumes. I pray they will always be close. They do have their moments but they truly love each other.